Forgiving
While driving home from
work today
I heard a familiar song
"A Lady Down On
Love" by Alabama
One which I could
never sing along.
It was popular
after my divorce
A song with which
I could identify
As I needed someone
to gently pick me up
And listening to it
put tears in my eyes.
I decided that night to
call him
After
being divorced for many years
Hoping I could say
what I was feeling
Without bursting
into tears.
His voice was deep and
sexy
As I always remembered
it to be.
I told him the
song brought back memories
And I let my feelings run free.
I told him I would
never forget him
Or ever forget
what he did to me
But I forgave
him as I felt he couldn't help it
And asked him if he ever
thought of me?
He said he
did every once in a while
Thinking about places we
had been.
I asked
about things he said after our broken ties.
His answers
were reassuring in that he didn't lie.
I told him I could cry
sometimes
If I thought of
how much I was cheated in life
Of not
having someone to grow old with
And I knew that I was a
good wife.
He said I was the best
mother
And was a very good
wife.
For me too many things
happened
That forever changed my
life.
I asked him if
he was truly happy.
He said the happiest he
had ever been.
His said his wife was
the best
And thanked me for
calling again.
I forgive you was hard
for me to say
But, I guess my needs
he couldn't see.
I'm sorry is really what I needed to hear.
But, it was never meant to
be.
© 2006 ~ Carol
Barton
Song composed by David W. Folsom